Healthy Maniac, new and improved.

I've decided to change the general goal of this blog. You see, this past New Years I have undergone quite a change myself, and while I believe this change has been brewing inside of me for some time now it is something I wish I had taken the initiative to do years ago.

What I've decided for myself, and for this blog, is to concentrate not on just a healthy body, or one aspect of health such as diet and/or exercise, but to form all of my decisions based on a healthy life, inside and out. I want a healthy mind, one that will be exercised actively every single day. I want a healthy inside, not just what can be viewed from the outside. And I want a healthy attitude, towards life and myself and others.

For those who don't know me, I am a couch potato. Any spare moment I could find I would lounge on my couch and watch TV, sometimes wishing I didn't have appointments with friends so that I could sit inside my house for even longer periods of time. TV became a crutch for me, the characters I watched everyday somewhat became my friends, and I no longer needed to find real sized people to hang out with - I had my mini ones, trapped inside my living room and available whenever I needed them. I could turn on a show and forget what was upsetting me, quit thinking about the annoying instances of the day, I could just zone. And so I did, I became addicted to TV and to not having to worry about anything. If I didn't have a few solid hours of TV time in my day, I felt overly stressed and deprived of my "me time."

However, I love to read. I love to dance. I love to write, and hang with friends, and cook and browse book stores and drink coffee and meet new people. I also am someone who needs to feel my emotions, and find outlets for the anger, sadness or stress I was feeling. All of these things were not getting proper attention in my life, because I was too focused on staying home and watching TV, snuggled on the couch, forgetting that real life existed. I was not using my mind for anything challenging, and I was ashamed of myself in many ways. I wanted to do the things I loved, but never 'found the time,' because I couldn't turn off the television set.

After realizing how detrimental this was, not only to my life but also my self esteem, I have decided to change my own life and dedicate myself to creating a person I could be proud of, and not just relax into a state of easy comfort. I turned off the TV, turned up the music, and turned into wwo I really wanted to be in life. I want to write! I want to make a serious go at freelancing for money, and I want all my self-doubts to be damned! I want to read more books; to feel educated and smart. I want to cook for myself more, and learn new ways to approach food and my diet. In the past two weeks I have overhauled my entire way of doing things, and in effect changed my own life for the better.

This change is what has inspired me to renew my blog with excitement, because I sincerely want others to feel as excited as I am about life, and change, and their goals. So I will be commenting not only on ways to renew the exercise animal within ourselves, but also on the ways I have found to truly enjoy life, and lead a healthy one - externally and internally. I hope that you all will find the strength within yourselves to make your life the best it can be, in new and challenging ways.